Putting Words to the Inexpressible

It has been quite a long time since I have last posted, and while I have desired several times to post something over the past year, in honesty I have been at a loss for words.  2010 was a very, very challenging year for me.  There were many beautiful moments to be sure, but as a whole, last year kicked the shit out of me.  I learned and grew immensely from the experiences that I had, and now, going into June of 2011, the draw to write again is becoming to strong to ignore any longer.

Part of the problem is that so much of my experiences, understanding, knowing is so multidimensional, multi-faceted, and so much a part of an unbroken whole (integral/integrated/(w)holistic), that I have been very reticent to attempt to translate it into words.  I have decided, however, because I feel it is important, to do my best.  So here I am once again, translating the inexpressible into analogies, metaphors, and parables that, when seen together as a whole, help to convey that which I am attempting to describe.  This whole translating thing is a natural aspect of who and what I am, one of my many aspects so to speak.  It's partly why I love language in general, and the many languages of the world.  Each human language expresses some aspect of experience and dimension of life with exquisitely deep and nuanced succinctness, while other areas it glosses over with one or two words.  Every language is different in this regard.  Each is an utterly unique lens through which to view the world.  That's one reason that learning multiple languages is so beneficial; it gives you many perspectives.

As inter-dimensional translators we have an impossible task, since what we hope to describe in truth can never be fully expressed in this context of being.  Distortions are a given.  They always exist in this sort of communication.  That does not mean that we will not do our absolute best to make things as clear as possible, with as few distortions as possible.  I learned of this ability many years ago when it was apparently triggered by reading Jane Roberts and the Seth Material (Wikipedia, Seth Network International).  When I first began reading the material (and this took years mind you, as there are a great many books) I could only read a page or 2 at a time before I had to put the book down, close my eyes, and process what I had just read.  They were very information-dense.  Then I noticed a curious thing.  As I would read, I would feel this very odd acceleration within my mind, almost like gears speeding up. When that was completed, as I would read, I would begin receiving all sorts of information about what I was reading...fleshing out the words with a much fuller dimensionality.

This information felt like innumerable threads, every one connected to every other one.  The information would come to me as concepts, ideas, images, feelings, analogies, and the like.  In this manner my mind was blown wide open many, many, many times.  Then I began to notice that when I was talking with people on anything related to the greater dimensions of Reality, Identity, "God", and the like, I would begin to feel this same strange mental acceleration.  Information would begin to come to me in the same manner, which I would speak, and in actuality, translate for the people with whom I was speaking.  Pretty soon the mental acceleration aspect of the experience stopped, and from that point on I could tune into these threads of information whenever I needed, on the fly.  That was many years ago.

Another interesting thing that caught my attention was that sometimes the information would flow quickly and easily, and other times it would come in a much more haltering fashion, very stop and go, no matter how much I desired to speak it.  I eventually realized that it was the people themselves with whom I was speaking that determined how the information flowed, and what came through.  It was dependent of where they were in their psycho-spiritual development or stages of consciousness.  The most amazing thing about some of those times when it would flow freely and easily was that every now and again the information coming through me would go beyond even where I had ever been, and would blow my own mind wide open along with those individuals with whom I was speaking.  As the words would be coming out of my mouth I would be saying, "Oh my God, oh my God...".

This inter-dimensional translating has become such a natural and innate aspect of who I am that most of my friends are quite accustomed to it now, even though it still tends to blow their minds wide open.  This is one of several reasons that I am here on the planet at this time.  While I did not at all expect this first post after so much time to be so long and involved, and am quite surprised that it is, this is just the beginning.  I have much, much more to say...so, until next time!